CHAPTER SEVEN
We both got dressed after our showers and made our way to one of the resort's buffets. I haven't heard from Anthony yet, which I'm not sure was a good or bad thing. I had hoped that one night with Maya was enough to satiate his lust. Maya and I still had four more days until we went back home, so there was plenty of time for him to do something else if he wanted to.
We had a nice lunch without any interruption. Yet, I was anxious the whole time, thinking Anthony was going to show up.
Throughout lunch, however, Maya received several texts. She said it was some of her family and friends who were checking in on her. My paranoid self was telling me she was lying, but my common-sense self was telling me to relax, that she made it clear earlier that she didn't want to repeat what happened last night. Right?
She didn't say she would never do it again.
But she said last night shouldn't have happened.
Keyword being "should". Plus, she has not once said she regretted it. If anything, she sounded like she will want to do it again. As long you're okay with it.
No way. There's no way she wants to do that again. Remember how it bothered Maya? Why would she want to do it again if it made her feel that way?
Are you deaf? Or maybe you're just in denial. She very much wants to do it again. She's just worried about you and how it will make you feel. If you tell her just once that you don't want her to do it again, she'll do it. Because she loves you.
My thoughts were turning against me. I'm not sure what I would do or say if Maya wanted to do that again. I would prefer Anthony forcing himself on her. That way, she would fight him off and reject him, and I wouldn't have a choice in the matter. It was a horrible thing to think about, but it was true. I hated having to participate in seducing my wife to sleep with Anthony.
Just then I received a text message of my own.
Shit. It was Anthony.
I'm in the lobby. Meet me there. Now.
Reading that message made my heart sink. I should've known Anthony would reach out to me again, yet my hopes wouldn't let me accept that notion.
"I, uh, have to use the restroom. I'll be right back," I lied.
Maya was still on her phone, typing away when she looked up.
"Oh, okay, babe. Don't take too long," she smiled.
I got up and casually left the buffet dining room. Lucky for me, the lobby was near the dining area, so it took minutes to get there. I saw Anthony sitting by himself in one of the lobby couches, typing away on his phone. When he saw me coming, he quickly put his phone away.
"Robert, my man! Have a seat!"
I sat on a different couch that was right next to the couch Anthony was sitting on.
"What do you want, Anthony?" I said.
He was about to say something until he scoffed, his happy expression changing to annoyance.
"You're lucky your wife was a good fuck last night. I'll let that mistake you just made slide. Just this once. If you say my name one more time, I'll correct you again. I don't give a fuck who sees. Do you understand me?"
He wouldn't do anything to me in front of these other people, would he? No way he could get away with hurting me in public. Especially with cameras around. Yet, I'm not a gambling man. I was too scared to call his bluff. So I quickly nodded, trying to look apologetic.
"Good. Now, as I was saying, your wife was a great fuck. I have to thank you for letting me have her before you did. Now, she'll always know what a real man is supposed to feel like."
His words were like acid to my ears. I didn't want Maya to sleep with him. He forced me to. If it wasn't for his blackmail, I would've rejected this insanity.
"Anyway, I know I said, this was going to be a one-time thing, but I've decided to change the plan a bit."
I should've known this was coming too. Those words hurt me even more. I was on the verge of screaming and crying.
"Usually, I'm a hit-it-and-quit-it kinda guy, but I figure, hell, we have a few more days here. Why not take advantage of them until we all go back home? Doesn't that sound like a better idea, Rob?"
I'm not surprised by the news, but I'm still shocked. I really didn't think this would happen again. Wishful thinking, I guess.
"But you said this would only be one time?" I pleaded.
"Yeah, but I changed my mind. Having your wife for one night is not enough. I want more time with her. Unless you have a problem with that? Do you have a problem with my change of plans, Rob?"
His question was said in a threatening tone. If I didn't answer the way he wanted me to, I would certainly pay for it. It was just another cruel way to torture me mentally. He knew I would say no, but under the circumstances, I couldn't afford to say that. I was still at his mercy.
"No, A- er..., sir, but-"
"But what?"
"Maya. I don't think she's up for it again," I reasoned. Anthony laughed.
He took out his phone, fiddled with it a bit then tossed it to me.
"I'm not too sure about that, buddy," Anthony assured me.
After catching it, I looked at his phone to see text messages between him and Maya. My suspicions about who she was texting were confirmed. Their dialogue was long. I skimmed through most of it, stopping to read some of their conversation.
Anthony: You were amazing last night.
Maya: Stop it. Robert is right next to me.
Anthony: Sorry. I can't help it. I can't stop thinking about it. He's a lucky man to have a woman like you.
Maya: This is wrong. I don't like texting you without him knowing.
Anthony: So tell him. It's not like he doesn't know what happened last night.
I skimmed some more before stopping again to read some more material.
Anthony: Maya I won't lie. I very much want to be with you again. Of course, with Anthony’s blessing.
Maya: I don't know. It's wrong. I don't think he wants to go through that again.
Anthony: Do you?
Maya: Do I what?
Anthony: Do you want to be with me again?
Maya: Yes
Based on the time she sent her texts, Maya did not hesitate to answer his texts. I couldn't read anymore. I literally felt the blood draining from my face.
Does she want to do it again? But why? I thought she didn't like it? Doesn't she realize how much it hurts me?
Is that really true? C'mon, man, there is a part of you that really enjoyed what you saw last night.
No. That's not true. Maya is my wife. No normal husband wants to see his wife in bed with another man.
It's hard to take you seriously especially after jacking off to watching them go at it. Not to mention you picturing fucking them when you made love to your wife for the first time.
Shut up!
I looked away, closing my eyes, trying not to listen to my own thoughts that have been against me since this whole thing started. I handed the phone back to Anthony without looking at him.
"What did I tell you? Your wife couldn't get enough either. So here's what you're going to do. You're going to go back to your wife and have a long talk about where your relationship is going and all that shit. Then you're going to suggest my great idea as yours."
This was just not fair. I had to lie some more about my feelings of this situation. The more I sound convincing, the more she thinks that not only is this idea coming from me, but also how a great idea it sounds.
"You have until the end of the day to bring Maya back to my suite. But you know what? I may not be against helping if you like. Of course, you're invited to watch too. I have to admit, knowing you were watching me fuck your wife on your honeymoon made me cum inside her harder."
Why can't he stop? What's wrong with him? How can he treat another human being like this? He has to see what this is doing to me. Or he just doesn't care. Only a psychopath would think that.
"If I don't see or hear from you and Maya, I'll assume you failed and make sure your life is pure hell starting tomorrow." Anthony stood up. "So don't take too long, buddy. Okay?" With that, he parted ways.
I just sat there, still digesting the sudden turn of events. I didn't have time to wallow in the bad news when Maya texted me if I was alright. I didn't realize how much time had passed talking with Anthony.
I was in no hurry to get back. I wish I could just stay here forever, not going through another episode of last night.
But I swallowed my anguish, took a deep breath, and walked back to the dining room.
Maya was still on her phone typing away. I got close enough to see she had a worried look on her before noticing my return. She quickly put her phone away and replaced her look with a smile.
"Hey, what took you so long?" She asked.
"Sorry. Thought I had to go see a man about a horse. Then I thought buying one wasn't the right time," I joked.
"Funny," she mocked.
As I sat down, I tried to figure out how I wanted to say the next words carefully. I was either going to upset her or, worse, excite her.
I didn't get a chance to say anything. Instead, Maya brought it up first.
"Babe. We need to talk about something. About last night."
I guess Anthony was busy convincing her too to have this conversation, covering all bases.
"Right. Um...Do you want to go back to the room to talk?"
Maya looked outside through the nearest window. It's another bright and sunny day.
"Let's go for a walk. On the beach." Maya suggested. I nodded and proceeded to follow her towards the direction of the beach.
The temperature was in the high 90s but walking along the shore made it cooler thanks to the waves. Maya took off her sandals and held onto them as she and I walked close enough to where we can feel the water reach our feet.
Making sure there was no one else around, we had our personal conversation.
"I've been thinking about last night." Maya started.
"Regrets?"
She didn't say anything.
"It's okay, Maya. You can tell me anything. You know that, right?" I reassured her.
"What if I said I don't?"
"No regrets?"
She nodded, looking down at the sand. I wish I could really tell her how I was genuinely feeling. It killed me every time I convinced her to sleep with Anthony. I didn't have the guts to do so. I was still very much afraid of Anthony and his threats.
"I told you before, Maya. It's what I wanted. It's what I've always wanted. My only regret is that I didn't tell you sooner. I am sorry for that."
"It's just that...I never thought in a thousand years I could ever do that to someone I love."
"You say that like you meant to hurt someone. You haven't hurt me. Just the opposite."
"You know what I mean, Robert. I've never cheated on any of the men I've been with before you."
"This is not cheating. Cheating on me would mean you see other men behind my back. That's not what happened last night."
"So you can honestly say, without any doubt, that last night did not bother you whatsoever?"
Of course, it did, Maya, I thought.
"Of course not, Maya," I said. "I wouldn't have mentioned it if it did. Imagine my surprise when you actually did it."
"So you don't hate me?"
"Of course not!"
"Or think I'm a slut?"
"Oh, well, yeah."
"What?!" She said in disbelief.
I gave her a sly smile, indicating I was joking. She punched me on the shoulder.
"Pendejo!" Maya yelled.
"Sorry, babe, I couldn't resist."I may have been in turmoil about the situation, but that didn't mean Maya had to be too. At the very least, I wanted her to be happy and enjoy herself. "But seriously, though, I don't think you're a slut."
"My God. What would my family and friends think if they found out what happened here?"
"Why would they know? How would they even find out?"
"I don't know. Just thinking the worst case scenario."
You mean like now? I thought.
"They will never find out. This is just between us. The only way they'll ever find out about what happened here is if we tell them. Which we won't, of course."
"I know..."
"What else is bothering you?"
"It makes me think what else I don't know about myself. I'm just surprised at myself. I'm hoping I don't regret this later."
"Maybe you will, maybe you won't. We'll cross that bridge when we get there. Together."
Maya looked at me, returning the fake smile I had on.
"So we're really doing this?" She asked.
"I think so. As long as you want to." It was still my hope that Maya will want to stop the whole thing.
"How often do you think you want to do this?" Maya asked.
"I don't know. I guess we could play it by ear."
"Are you going to want to watch all the time?"
I didn't know how to answer that. I'm not sure if Anthony wanted me to be there all the time to watch them, even though he said he got a kick out of it.
"Not all the time. I guess you could tell me all about it afterward. Did it bother you at all when I watched you last night?"
"Honestly? I forgot you were there. Anthony...just has a way where I'm, like, under his spell."
"Wow. You must really like him." It hurt to say those words. Maya doesn't know what kind of person Anthony really is. I hope she never does.
"I do. He's a good guy. He's handsome, charming, and smart...," Maya trailed off. It looked like she was thinking about him, trying to hide a smile. She changed her expression when she noticed me looking at her. "But I don't love him. I never will. You're the only man I love."
"I know, babe".
"With him, it's just...lust. I never felt lust that powerful. It's overwhelming. I don't know why I feel that way about him. Last night, I couldn't resist him. In the back of my mind, I thought you would step in to stop him. But you didn't. It's when I knew, you were being serious. About your fantasy."
So she did wanted me to stop her. And I wanted her to resist him and walk away. My masculinity was becoming more absent by the second.
"Now you know," was all I could say. I didn't want to lie and confirm it.
"I have to tell you something," she said.
"What is it?"
"I've been texting Anthony since this morning. He was asking about us. He was surprised when he came back from the bathroom and didn't see us in his suite. He also said he tried calling me and the room. Did you hear the phone ring this morning?"
Another lie Anthony wanted me to confirm. I really hated how I helped portray him as a good and thoughtful person.
"Must've been asleep," I said.
"Anyway, he and I have been texting quite a bit today. I didn't want to keep that from you. No lies or secrets between us anymore, okay?"
I nodded. We remained silent as we saw an older couple walking towards us. We both exchanged pleasantries as they walked past us. I waited until there was considerable distance between us and the couple.
"What else did he say?"
"He said he really had a great time last night. He's never done anything like that before. And...," Maya had trouble completing the sentence.
"And?"
"...And was asking if there's a chance it could happen again." She looked at me, waiting to see my reaction.
"What did you say," I responded calmly.
"I told him I didn't know. That I wouldn't if you had a problem with it. But I mean...," again Maya had trouble saying the next words.
"What is it?"
"Do we really want to go down this road, Robert? Can you honestly say this will not change you or us in the future? Once was okay, but I'm just scared what's going to happen to us if we keep doing this?"
I thought about her concerns for a moment before answering.
"Sounds like you're more worried about me than you. How does it make you feel? Do you think you can handle it?"
"I asked you first," she retorted.
I felt that urge again to tell her the truth. Not only everything that Anthony made me do but tell her how this will really affect me in the long run. But I didn't want to get in trouble with Anthony. I haven't forgotten his threats and what will happen to me if I don't do what he says.
"I will still love you if that's what you're worried about. Last night, I didn't get upset or jealous when I saw you with Anthony. It was...everything I had hoped. If you do this with me, my love for you will never change. I want you to be happy. Like I am." I gave her a big smile. Some of that was the truth. No matter what she does with Anthony, I will still love her.
She gave me a sympathetic look. Maya had her mind on another matter before speaking again.
"Do you want to be with another girl?"
I laughed at her question.
Maya is the only girl I've been in a serious relationship with. I can count with how many girls I've been with, before her, with one hand. But even if I am able to attract another girl, I wouldn't do anything with her. Maya is the only girl for me.
"Why are you laughing?" She asked me.
"I'm not exactly a ladies man in case you didn't notice yet! And even if a girl did find me attractive, I wouldn't do anything with her."
"But it's okay with you if I'm with another man?" she questioned me again.
"That's what being in a cuckold relationship is all about. It's weird, I know. But it's how I feel. And I am so happy that you turned my dream into reality."
Fear is a powerful motivator. And right now it's motivating me to keep sounding convincing.
We walked some more along the shore in silence. I wasn't keeping track of how long we've been walking. I knew it was far judging by how small the resort looked from where we are.
"I never thought I would do this with the man I love. If anything, I was afraid of being cheated on. You know about some of the guys I've dated, right?"
I nodded. "The assholes."
She smiled. "Right. I've never cheated on anyone before. I guess, according to you, I still haven't."
"Right," I agreed.
Suddenly Maya stepped in front of me to stop me from walking.
"If we're going to do this Robert, you have to promise me a few things," Maya commanded.
"Okay. What is it?"
"First," she held up her index finger, "you are going to be honest with me about everything. What you're feeling, what you're thinking, and what you're doing. Okay?"
I had to hold back my tears because I knew I was already breaking that promise. If I told her the truth now, everything would be for nothing. I had to think what the lesser of two evils was.
"Of course, babe. What else?"
"Second, I can end this whenever I want. No matter what the reason is. And you can never argue with me about it." Maya waited for my answer.
"Yes, that's fair." I hope I will never be in a situation where I'll have to convince Maya to keep going with this bizarre arrangement. "Anything else?"
She embraced me, her face closer to mine.
"Don't ever stop loving me. Okay? Because I will always love you. You're the only man I will ever love."
"And you're the only woman I will ever love." We both kissed for a long time until we just stood there holding each other for comfort. Her love did help relieve some of the stress and pain I was feeling. With her in my arms, it felt like everything was going to be alright.
On our way back to the resort we next spoke about where we go from here.
"Remember when I said I've been texting Anthony since this morning?" Maya reminded me.
"Yeah?"
"Well, he invited us back to his suite tonight."
This was something else I should've seen coming. Our time here was going to be over soon. Anthony was not going to waste any time getting more intimate with my wife.
"Really? Do you want to go?"
Maya looked at me confused.
"Don't you?" She asked me.
"I mean, yeah, but I just want to make sure you're ready for this again."
"It's weird. I feel like I'm fighting with myself. I do but I don't. It's how I felt last night. It wasn't until Anthony made the first move that I completely gave in. Maybe tonight will be the same."
"I guess we'll see," I took Maya' and held it tight as we walked back the rest of the way to the resort.